OMG!! i did not know our library had wireless internet cababilities!! muwahahaha!!!
now i'll bring my laptop everyday!! V(^o^)V

i dont why but lately i cant seem to eat enough, i always feel hungry regardless of wat i eat TT_TT n when i dont eat till i'm full, i get dizzy n stuff. i guess rite i just have to screw my weight plan n eat alot cause i'm doing so much everybody that i cant afford to get hospitalized. i spend about 14 hrs outside of my home daily for classes, club, etc. so i'm gonna eat lots to make sure i have enough energy since i dont have much time to sleep. health comes before cosmetics rite?

i got rejected from asia, and for the lamest reasons too....
i'm sorry but we already have a lot of acts
translation => we dont know you, we wont see you
yeah....thats kinda why you hold auditions to see which groups are the best and kick out the bad ones. i mean why else do you think asia's show has been getting worse and worse every year?

and you know the comittee is really tired cause we didnt intend to keep them this long and they really want to go home
translation => we're lazy n we wanna go home
-____- yes, that's such a kick ass excuse "we're lazy so we arent going to see you". i'm sure the supreme court uses one that every day. if they had taken the time to just look at my dance, which only takes about 3 min, i wouldnt be as pissed off. But they didnt even look at me, didnt consider what kind of dance it was, or how good i was. I had the entire freakin dance done already!!! but no!! they dont care about that. gee thanks so much for the time and consideration(which was less than a fraction of a second) you went through to say no

we already accepted the group before you, so it would be unfair if we take you too...
translation => its either you or them
you know i can't help but feel a little betrayed about that. i mean i dont really blame you but just...betrayed. we were suppose to go ask together but you left me to go and ask with kathleen. you decided that you wanted to audition for asia friday morning, i decided in 9th grade. Yet i'm the one who's not even given a chance to demonstrate what i got. you just wanted to leave after you've auditioned, without giving me any kind of support or help. if i had auditioned first, they would have taken me instead of you. i would have stayed and debated with asia about my rejection, but if i stayed any longer i would have started to cry in front of them.

to any other person asian night is just a show, but to me its a "high school life time" goal, and my chance to show that particular person that she's not better than me in any given way.

my grudge shall we say is so strong that it had caused me to spontaneously wake up at 2 in the morning to express my grief and disappointment. its 3 and i'm tired now, going back to sleep, will continue this later today.

u're so screwed in college!! everywhere we go, guys hit on her. and she needs anusha to be rude and chase them away! she was just sitting there like a dolt, smiling, and talking to them as if they were long lost friends.

it's not my fault that i'm a beautiful godess! (<=xtine)

yah!! my dan dan/ella/ding dong got in to NHS!! ^_^ so proud of u! now get off u're butt n do some seevaking XP
sushi: u dont need a job, finish seevak first!!!! X_X

must go to the lab for my hours. there is no way that we can compete buttons w/ carnations, just to tell u that carrie TT_TT. who are we gonna sell to?? everybody's broke cause of tsunami relief fundraisers...o btw the john hancock performance raised $60,000 ^o^ muwahahaha i feel like i achieved so much even thou i'm only a small part of the whole effort.

my mom got into a car accident again....only this time she hit a person -__- this is like what? the 5th accident she's been in in the last 6th month? but everytime she's still like o its not my fault, its the other persons. this really reflects her response for everything, in her mind everything that goes wrong is somebody else's fault. this time her excuse is that its not her fault that that person walked infront of her, and the police didnt tell her that it was her fault when the ambulance came to take that person away. -___- i thought that it was so obvious that the policeman didnt have to tell her that "it was your fault", any logical person would have already came to that conclusion.

yesterday was a bad day...today is even worse. my parents decided to hold a honorary ancestor thing to pray for luck so my mom would stop crashing into things as well as people, and maybe if we're really lucky i would get into one college -__-. i havnt seen one performed since i was 10 and still living in my grandparents' dirt house. the cheap incense suceeded in triggering all the fire alarms in my house for a good half hour. then they kept beeping randomly for the next hour probably confused by the route of the odor. i'm surprised that the neighbors havnt started complaining like they usually do when my dad's cooking sets of the fire alarm. Then i had to bow chinese style to a tableful of invisible ancestors who were obviously enjoying the feast. So now the entire house reeks of an old musty scent I tried to get rid of the smell by spraying some bath n body, but it only made my cramped room more stuffy. While trying to rewrite my english presentation in this oh so inspirational environment, my mom calls me every 5 minutes to ask me something about the FAFSA. She's "double checking" it. Along with FAFSA inquries, she magically pulled more financial forms of different schools from a hat, and expects me to finish them all in the same manner she produced them. Yes, i can write a superb presentation, figure out confidental levels, fill in numerous financial forms, and answer every 5 min why clicking "next" just didnt work all at the same time. i'm sure there is something i've forgotten to do, but presently i really dont want to remember.
o btw yesterday my mom borrowed my phone because she misplaced hers, so when i got it back, i missed like 20 calls. sorry guys hehe... i couldnt get out of the house yesterday because first mom had police reports to file and then my dad needed the other car to deliver take-out, before he drove my mom to her banquet.
on the bright side, Temptation of Wolves finished downloading! ^_^ it's such a good movie, the girl from the Lyn MV is in it, watched it twice and it still made me cry. I usually dont cry from a movie, or is it because i usually dont watch sappy movies? O_o haha. Either way maybe i'll show it to you guys if you feel like suffering too.
now i am waiting for
Full House - 2days 18hr 51min
House of Flying Daggers - 4days 1hr 27min
Spin Kick - unknown
My Sassy Girl - 23hr 2min 18sec

i created this a long time ago(like 2 years), but never bother to get u guys involved. i cant understand why you all use xanga since its so crappy n weird. i know i know, "everybody" uses it. but i swear i'm gonna convert you all so everybody will use tabulas!! muwahaha.... lol

ppl who already have tabulas ammu babiextine ravine33 ppl who will have tabulas maggie kristina huiyi sharon

A Wolve's Temptation 11.04.04
Spin Kick 09.14.04
House of Flying Daggers 2004
Full House Ep.01.02.03.06
My Sassy Girl
The Village 07.30.04
Il Mare 2000
Dead Friend 08.23.04
Crazy First Love 2003

ok so here we are...7:30 at the lab
sushi n xtine are watching her indian videos
carrie's drawing on paint
i'm watching my korean stuff cause josh took away internet -___-
n u guys call me unproductive??
i was looking at ChiefDelphi stuff until xtine asked me to help her lvl for ROSE....
thanx a lot u guys, u can always blame me for stuff when you u're self isnt really doing anything either. yup, thats what i'm here for

hey u guys i just noticed....
there's no way we can win the website award this year -___- and i'll tell you why
here check it out
WPI team 190

i fell asleep during yoga today ^_^;;; we're just lying on the matt for a good 10 min, what did she expect me to do?? bla... i'm gonna miss an arts festival on March 5th cause of the manchester regional. couldnt go to the lab today cause appearantly everyone was out in quincy -___-

vacation plans, vacation plans...well it really doesnt feel like a vacation
monday: lab
tuesday: seevak
wednsday: library
thursday: homework
friday: hw/clean

err...i wont be able to make the seevak meeting on Feb 28 cause my mom arranged an interview....w/o telling me of couse
it will be 9hrs 30min 24sec until House of Flying Daggers will be complete

damn when i'm stressed i eat x_x
working on the nutrons site from home rite now
beta

when u guys perfected the layout send me the parts, so i can correct the layout

radio.blog is weird...

i wanna get my ears pierced tomorrow and get a haircut in the near future. kiwi come w/!!! u need both too, so we should go together ^_^ hmm where can i pierce my ears? i hope the claire's in prudential has it or else i have to go the galleria...dont really trust the one in downtown. anyways gonna go to the library first to do some research w/ my seevak buddies. Maybe i can go to prudential before i go to the lab to give mary my deposit. Yeah i probably will have time since mary is suppose to show up around 6. who wants to go the mall with me?? ^o^ (bla...poopie xtine left me on monday XP for the mall)

went shopping today w/ my parents cause nobody would go with me. couldnt buy my mom her birthday present cause she kept following me around. maybe i'll go after school on monday. wow it really does only take 15 min to get to south shore plaza when we go on the high way! ^_^ i bought a blazer n sunglasses and a dress. its so pretty!! +_+ it fits but its a lil tight across my pepsi belly -__- so now i've vowed a month of no soda, no chicken, and no beef. well, at least for dinner anyway. lol.
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cvaphoenix (5:14:46 PM): hey
ever treasured (5:15:24 PM): do u have cathy's email address?
ever treasured (5:15:39 PM): cause i hear my phone ring
ever treasured (5:15:45 PM): but i cant find it
cvaphoenix signed off at 5:22:44 PM.
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thanx a lot, i toil through all u're questions for the duckie derby, but u dont even answer 1?? T__T i see how it is. emailed kathy again with everything i had. 3-way-calling is funky. stupid tuttle is an ___. emailed don, we'll work this out somehow. xtine r u still going to atlanta? cause i talked to mary in person, i'm allowed to go now, but she wasnt too happy.
btw who wants to buy a rubber duckie from me? ^o^